““It is therefore senseless to think of complaining since nothing foreign has decided what we feel, what we live, or what we are.””
A poetic way to say - own your shit…
Today I am 1,000 days sober. My life has changed for the better in a myriad of ways but, gaining the superpower to take responsibility for my shit (and my accomplishments) has perhaps been the greatest gift. Looking back I am amazed by how much energy I have wasted in this life making excuses & shifting blame to something/ someone beyond myself. 1,000 days in - this is where I am with sobriety. Feeling brave/ humble enough to point to my failures, trash heaps and treasure troves and say, “I made that…” Owning all of it, not just the best parts, has been a boon to my self esteem AND (at times) it has kept me from repeating painful patterns. That being said, I am happy to report that I am still a work in progress and don’t have it all figured out yet. I assume I would be bored if it were any other way.
So today, to celebrate I will nourish myself in meaningful ways.. meditate a little bit longer, work on some art, take a walk, pick some flowers, give my full attention to the people I connect with, have dinner outside somewhere and maybe (probably)… get some ice cream. Maybe do one of these things today too and w celebrate with me?
-B
P.S. My trumpet vine is doin’ real good so I wanted to show her off today. May we all bloom as prolifically as she does.