I am so grateful to be sober and much less anxious in this new, scary, strange and crazy making time we are living in. I am greatful to be present and emotionally stable in this nightmare. To be in a place where I can recognize the little wins and lovely moments that exist. To be actively looking for them. If this had gone down while I was still running from my problems I think it would have all been too overwhelming. It may have left me hopeless. This morning as I get up the birds are chirping, the sun gently stretching in though the window while I read the headlines over a cup of tea. They are are frightening. They are befuddling, heartbreaking… crazy making. Covid cases are doubling, moms in Portland are having to hit the streets and mom it up against the secret police that have taken over their city. Their own mayor got tear gassed but he remained at the front. Solidarity. I like it. But.. How are we allowing this to happen? Didn’t Melania Trump set out to squelch bullying? Considering her choice in life partners I can see why it is an issue close to heart but clearly she is no authority on how one might shut it down. Speaking of shutting it down.. Another headline reads that Trump is boasting about passing a “difficult” cognitive test. Studies show that people with higher cognitive abilities are more likely to learn and apply social stereotypes. They also show that those with high cognitive function find it easier to unlearn stereotypes when presented with new information. So, I would be interested in seeing his test results. I generally refuse to accept that anyone is a lost cause but this guy…
I had a laugh when I came across this space camp shirt this morning. Space Camp sounds like a fun alternative to this reality. I wonder what a summer of 2020 tshirt would feature… Social (distancing) clubs? Victory gardens? “YOLO” is probably out. A bit too dark for these summer vibes.
Okay. No more news for me today. I am off to work and to find things to smile about. I will report back.
Day 190: Smoothie and burrito to go. One Wondershowzen (banana, spinach, peanut butter, almond milk and hemp protein) + 1/2 a Frijole Roller. Juice land for the win! Always makes me smile. This is the burrito of my teenage vegan dreams. Back then we just had Taco Bell.. Yuck x 2.