“You are the sky. Everything else - it’s just the weather. ”
This was my mantra today. I sorta played around with it by humming weather themed songs as my day went nothing like I had hoped it would. At some point in the afternoon Only Happy When It Rains popped into my head and.. I just had to laugh at myself. This is who I have always been. Someone who loves the storm. I have been rain dancing past caution signs and red flags as sport for a long time. This is something I have denied in the past but it has always been true. When life is messy I have something to clean up. Something to fix. Something I can blame or get preoccupied with when I get freaked out about what it would be to fully show up.. and potentially fail. Maybe you can relate? Seeing this and owning it right now feels… kind of powerful. My life had a real Hurricane Bonnie vibe a few years back and now, after fighting my way out of a self imposed deluge I can say (with a lot of empathy and forgiveness towards myself) that I chose that. Consciously.. subconsciously. Now I am feeling pretty confident that no matter what I choose next - it will come in spades.
Tomorrow is my 365th breakfast. I should probably knock off so I can wake up early, hangover free, and grab some eggs from the farm.. gotta wrap up this project with an egg on top.
Day 364: Hot Salad.. it kinda looks like confetti. Party. Sautéed broccoli, carrot, purple cabbage, red bell pepper, loads of garlic, lemon, crushed red pepper, a 6 minute egg and some hemp hearts.