I sat down to write my sobriety story to share with those who are starting the Sober October challenge today and honestly.. it was was just too damn long. Reading over my rambling I had an epiphany though. I saw my story in a totally new light. My recovery journey did not start when I quit drinking. I have been trying to heal myself for the past 25 years. Drinking and drugging was just part of the journey. A complicated, painful, and ultimately very unsuccessful attempt at feeling better.. being happy. I was using the wrong tools. Seeing it this way now, I feel like I can let go of any residual shame about that time. So whether this is your first attempt or your 50th be patient with yourself and take a moment to see it as the message of self love that kind of effort really is.
Stick with around too. You don’t have to do this shit alone. I tend to isolate. So I am saying that to whoever is reading this as much as I am saying it to myself. There is infinite potential when we all work together. On that note.. this felt like a pretty deep share. For the rest of the week we’re talking food! For starters we will dig into managing anxiety and sugar cravings. See you tomorrow. - B
Day 248: Golden Oats. Oat groats, coconut milk, h20, turmeric, cinnamon, dates, cardamom, ginger, coconut oil, pink salt+ bloobs, sunflower and pumpkin seeds and a little Greek yogurt.
Grounding, anti-inflammatory, delicious.